Friday, November 28, 2014

My first year


On the eve of my anniversary I thought would try to write out how I feel about being married. I think I should start out with saying that I really had no clue about what this was going to be like.   I have had girlfriends and roommates and I lived with my mom for most of my life.  All I knew was that this would be different.

I think I have grown as a person. I think I have become more responsible.  I take time out of my day to think about different chores around the house that need to get done.  Things that I would ave taken for granted when living with my mom. (Sorry mom) While I don't have a set schedule I do load the dish washer, wash clothes, make lunches and supper way more often that I ever thought possible. It shocks me that those things would have ever entered into my mind. So big change number 1 I do housework! shocking.

While growing up, I was always amazed on how my bed looks like a tornado came through and destroyed my bed in the morning.  I always worried about my wife.  I used to think how can anyone sleep with the whirling dervish that I am.  I know, at first, I had a hard time sleeping  worrying about her safety.  But I slowly got used to it.  She hasn't complained about it and we went from a king down to a queen and still very few problems.  It is usually my sleep talking that bugs her.  My mom used to tell me about whole conversations I had with her while I slept. It is always funny to hear what my subconscious wants to talk about.

The one thing I was not ready for after saying "I do"  is all the emotions and how much further my love grows.  I thought that I loved my wife that day last year.  I thought "Man how can I love this woman any more than I do now?" Little did I know how self centered I was then. Back then I was in love with another person. We were 2 people. She did her stuff and I did mine.  When thinking about stuff I always thought "I can do this. This is what I want" It was all about the "Andy".  While I still have an 'I' to think about I catch myself asking "What shoud we do? What is best for us? We can do this. This is what we like."

I still have my own hobbies but for the most part I am thinking about the team. My love for her might not have gotten bigger but it hasgrown deeper.  my love for her has gotten to my very core. In most places she has become the first prority.  While not totally dependant on her, I am only really happy when she is. When she is bummed I get bummed. When she is happy, I live in her joy. I never thought I would ever feel this way about anyone.

My heart is not the only thing that has grown. My brain has changed.  I never thought that I would ever meet someone who thinks like I do.  It is scary sometimes when I am thinking something and she says it.  It is like there is a link between us.  I don't know if this is how it is with all couples but dang, it is weird sometimes.  Sometimes I apologize for doing something only to find out she would have done the same thing or she wanted me to do it.  We laugh about how we share this one brain.

I know there are other things that have changed but these are the ones that came to mind. Over all I can't believe it has been a year.  They say time flies when you are having fun.  Well I am having a blast.  I hope my love can continue to change and become more entwined as we embark on our next adventure.  Look out Washington! Here comes Team PDA!

I love you darling! God Bless! 

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