less than 200 days...

While time seams to creep on by, Some how we have reach the 200 days till the wedding mark. I am getting excited and while this is a great time for me. This weekend was the toughest one.  My betrothed went home to visit her Mom and I didn't want to disrupt their quality time so I tried to hold back from texting her.


I filled my time with hanging out with family and friends but I always wanted to see what she was doing.  The one thing that kept me sane was her facebook posts.  I could get a glimpse into what she was doing  and be a part of her life if only marginally.

Today she asked me a question that got me thinking.  At one time, I told her that if she had stayed here I probably would not have asked her to marry me so soon.  She was wondering then why we were  getting married. Here is my answer.

From early on in our relationship I knew she was the one.  Every gut feeling I had pointed to her as being my wife.  If I could not see myself marrying her, I would not have kissed her.  I would not have risked my heart on her.  I would not have given myself to her.

We spent our time together and I saw the day she was leaving loom closer and closer.  I had already decided that I wanted to marry her.  I knew I was crazy but if it is right it is right.  With her moving away I wanted to "seal the deal" before she moved. We talked about getting married.  Things progressed and I found a ring.

When she moved away my heart broke.  She was so far away.  We did have cell phones and Skype but it is not the same as being there with her.  I knew I wanted to never leave her side.  I want to be with her forever.  It took this 350 mile barrier to drive home just how much a part of my life she is.  She is everything to me.  With her I feel on top of the world without her I am incomplete.  I am like the tin man without a heart.

On Feb 16 I proposed and the rest is history.   Now that we are less than 200 days I am feel like this is getting real.  I can't wait. It is like the night before Christmas but instead of only 1 night to go through I have 199 nights left.

Off to bed I go. The faster I fall asleep the faster 198 sleeps will come around.
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