busy, busy, busy...

Yesterday I was talking to my betrothed, as usual, and she made a comment about how busy my life is. Not really thinking about it I gave a quick response that if you are doing something you like, you don't really notice the hectic pace. While this is true, it is not the complete truth. The following is a taste of my schedule.

TUE Work, Dinner with best man, talk to Bijou
WED Work, pick up furniture, get items ready for sale at bazaar, talk to Bijou
THURS Work, Take items to bazaar, price items with workers, talk to Bijou
FRI Work, get everything ready for Sat trip, talk to Bijou
SAT Drop of Kelsey at kennel, drive to indy, got to DCI
SUN Church, Drive home, pick up Kelsey, talk to Bijou

And that is just this week. If I look at it from a distance I could easily get overwhelmed so I take it one day at a time. Not one of those things could be taken off the list. They all are important to keeping my life moving forward. The Bazaar will allow me to shrink my footprint and make it easier for me to move. The furniture will make our life easier with more space to organize stuff. The DCI stuff in indy is a chance for me to enjoy my music while getting a chance to be with my love. It is also my last hurrah with my mom so this trip is important.

So you might think that maybe this is just a busy week. I would have to disagree with you though. My life tends to be a roller coaster ride with a small break every evening to recharge. I think it goes back to the days I was very alone. If I ever had some down time I started to realize how alone I was and got depressed. If I kept myself running from place to place like a busy little bee I didn't have time to worry about being alone. I worked and played myself to exhaustion and woke up and did it again the next day.

Now that I have something to slow down for I am having a hard time putting the brakes on. I try to slow down. It is hard to change a habit especially when life around me is still pushing me forward. I just got an email from a buddy that wants me to go to a concert tomorrow night and instead of just saying no I have started to try to figure out how I can fit it in. Old habits.... I hope my hectic life does not hurt my relations with my future wife. I hope that she can help me slow down and relax. All I can do is pray.

Dear God,

Help me slow down and appreciate what I have. Help me clear time so I can give myself completely to the person you have blessed me with.

Thank you, amen.

As a great man once said.

"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."

T-116 days and counting.... we are getting closer!!